I dream of winning the lottery

I dream of winning the lottery
so that I may buy a turbo-charged Subaru Legacy GT
and a 2 door Suzuki jeep
all that money will be the push I need
for you see
my friends are doing pretty well, successfully
but me
I'm stuck in a rut, basically
same ol' same ol' every week
to win the lottery
yes
I'll make it a j -o -b

oh to shop in France and Italy
buying stuff from the GQ and Details magazines
taking my love on a spending spree
then return home to a mansion by the sea
do nothing but relax, literally
play video games all day, then sleep
on a super big HDTV
obviously
oh my, I do dream of winning the lottery

but it takes patience, decades probably
gotta keep playing, depending on the the ticket machine
some day, I may be lucky
or might be broke like a bum eventually
gradually begging for ticket money

but if you're not like me
and winning the lottery isn't your dream
you believe I have false hope
no worries
your big payout will come after years and years of hard work

inspiration for a conflict

a promise of wild pleasure without red tape
zero technicalities. Just say the date
future infidelity; definitely a maybe,
trying not to think of the pain the beloved will feel
but irresistible to the strange lust
wishing a way to be guilt-free
it's impossible
but boy am I curious
what a risk!
---
this might hurt >
having a beyond average flirt;
very very naughty words
feeling defenseless and insecure
[for hours]
a situation of romantic horror
wanting a forbidden pleasure
that
definitely wants to be shared
a new hot body to shiver and tremor
applying sensual seduction till we cower
pretense vs respect
must. get. it. together
---
battle of wills
in a war zone of trust
you better be sensible!
intelligent whisper
instantly killed
the faint voice of reason;
overcome with want of taboo sexual healing
contradicting feelings
---
pardon me?
relax? forget about it, you say
but it's hard....
especially after that digital foreplay
more importantly, I just can't
territory is uncertain
[damn]
so intriguing
gradually close to giving in
if only, I knew where we're going
wasn't confused about what might happen
I think I'd make that decision
love for infatuation!?
an appealing but unfair trade
*sigh*
BEHAVE!
or is it that I'm too afraid?
emotions all over the place
no control - the female pilot is on auto
I'm such a f++_ing slave
---
being faithful is more than worth a try
rekindle. be cool. stay. the nice guy
but not with that impatient willingness
and the many temptation tactics
of
a cougar being relentless
to a prey who is extremely hesitant

when will this conflict. end.

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inspired in part by Usher's hot hit songs Let it Burn/Make Me Wanna/Dot Com/Seduction