I know what you did

You know you did it. This all happened because you did it and didn't say, and not only that.. you took precautions to hinder it's discovery. Yes, it ate me inside, distrust abounded. Had you said it the same day you did it without me having to fight myself to ask days later, we'd be easily past it. The other thing, you also know what you did, I kept my records. I know how the functionality works. Was it spite? Was it selfishness that got over you! 2 days it eroded my spirits. A bad feeling to have. In retrospect, if you had explained the contexts of the words you wrote, my desperation would have been avoided. I knew there were too many coincidences. I care for you but I'm sorry to say suspicion and paranoia may soon begin and yet I am still grateful that the confusing disease which was eating me is gone.

Joseph is Aloof

Aloof; meaning conspicuously uninvolved and uninterested, typically through distaste. Remote, reserved, reticent, indifferent..


I have reached the stage where my life is so simple, the tolerance and care is actually diminished. Things that excite and bother people/society have no influence on me. I don't fuss or fret. Never embarrassed or easily annoyed. I'm super cool-headed (growing up being stubborn around my overly strict miserable mum). People may say bad things about you to people who don't know you, they form impression sand the cycle goes on. 

Opinions of  people that I care about only matter. If I don't know you, your opinion doesn't matter to me.  Like my old manager.. she once said, "you are a nice smart guy but when people see your raggedy unkempt  hair, they would think the worst, you should carry yourself not as an undesirable but as a person of standard". I'm comfortable with my appearance in all aspects, people may get bothered or be offended but I care not.

Back to the simpleness,  week in week out for me it's the same stable circuit. Work and weekends.
Pay the rent, buy food stuffs, listen music, watch movies. Internet research. Entertain my companion. (cinema or dinner now and then) 
No worries, drama, stress. One would say, go out party, socialize with friends. Fulfill your life.. what not.  I just don't have that interest outside my seemingly basic activities/hobbies...
 
Meaning I could stay in an entire weekend, Friday night to Monday morn' and not even peek outside for sunshine and I am HAPPY. I don't have to go out and dress to impress anyone. Have my food and computer and I'm satisfied. This society and the ideals of false fake-ness.... The ultmitate goal, I think in this (bajan) life is to study, work, get your home/car, maybe family, settle and retire. Be comfortable. Well yes I would like to own my home, but at 40,000/year salary, one might need a mortgage (as I have been advised to do many times).  I have in mind a dream of a hermit lifestyle. Living apart from society but comfortable and observing.

 Life is what you make it, innit

My Facebook marketplace purchases

In light of the previous post..Here is a list of deals I have acquired from Facebook Marketplaces. Some I still have and in good condition.

Here goes.. in no order whatsoever.

Nokia N95 - 350.00
Nokia C3 - 100.00
Nokia E72 - 275.00 (current mobile)
Numark Mixtrack - 250.00 (I used, like twice)
Panasonic Lumix FH5 16mp camera - 275.00 (brand new)
Table and Chair - 50.00 (my best deal, yet)
12 inch (300 w) speaker with tweeter - 150.00
Computer (i3-330ghz, 4gb ram, hd7700) - 600.00
Blackberry Bold 2 - 250.00
Apple iPod 2G - 100.00
Acer 22' monitor - 120.00
2 Boss' 8' Speakers in bandbox and 840w amp - 350.00


2 Cars bought independently..

1991 Nissan Sunny B13 (sold)
1991 Rover 416 GSi

 
I also recently bought a Side by Side fridge for 300.00 from a newspaper ad.

Deals are out there! It also helps to subscribe to Bajan email marketers like such as thisnthatbajan and impressionsbarbados

the many Barbados Facebook Marketplaces

So you want to buy or sell new and used items in Barbados..

Go social marketplace.. Saying as the original Facebook Marketplace by Oodle isn't available to any countries but the US, scores of Barbadian/Bajan Facebook groups have popped up with the sole purpose of  service/products classifieds. Being me and always looking for deals, I scour the pages weekly.. the amount of items I have bought from this innovative courtesy is beyond value. I have gathered a list below.

Bajan Market Place : 2606
https://www.facebook.com/groups/Bajanmarketplace

Bajan Marketplace : 3404
https://www.facebook.com/groups/bajan.marketplace246

Buy, Sell, Services - Barbados : 2622
http://www.facebook.com/groups/130608700341707

eXchange : 526
https://www.facebook.com/groups/398677480149650

Bajan trade or sell : 893
https://www.facebook.com/groups/322082594496105

Buy and sell Barbados post group : 429
http://www.facebook.com/groups/143317745737409

Barbados sell your car online post network : 141
https://www.facebook.com/groups/477381512284873

Barbados BUY N SELL HERE : 743
https://www.facebook.com/groups/barbadoscraigslist

Village market : 128
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Village-market/552152348130332

Bajan Car Sales And Services : 189
http://www.facebook.com/BajanCarSalesAndServices

Bajan Auto Sales : 524
http://www.facebook.com/BajanAutoSlales



I also gander upon

David's Auctions
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Davids-Auctions/138030849570731

and 

CashWiz Barbados
http://www.facebook.com/cashwizbarbados

There's also 2 non Facebook based portals >

Bim.bb
http://bim.bb/

eCaribclassifieds
http://ecaribclassifieds.com

One might also try >>

Zhaust forums
http://www.zhaust.com/forum/index.php


There are many other online Barbados sites that dabble in resale of many items, this list amalgamates recent ones that have caught my attention.

Appreciated intelligent rap flow

I appreciate rap flow, you know.. the type filled with puns (any literary device really) and yet still hitting the rhymes on the beat. Artists like Don Trip, Chamillionaire, Fabulous, Method Man  Asher Roth, some Weezy and some Yeezy, B.o.B, Common, Plan B, Nas, Papoose, Lupe, Raekwon, Mike Skinner, Childish Gambino, Frisco and Joell Ortiz.... Heard some top lines from this guy Joey Bada$$ and even 'back in the day' Cassidy of late. A certain high level of intellect is need to interpret the plays. I especially love the lines where you have to remember what you just heard, then it hits..... like WOW!EPIC!! >>>>> In Barbados, we have rappers like SunRokk, RhyMinister and Daba of upperclass intelligence.

Few of my rated lyrics from Don Trip's 'Guerilla' followed by Chamillitary's 'Ill mind of Koopa';

I got paid and got a chauffeur I'm a rider til the end
Got an extender on the .40 and that .40 got a twin
All I know is dirty money but when I count it I feel clean
>>>>>
And you can say I run this shit but you can't ever say I ran
Say the money keep me high oh how I pray I never land
But I don't pray so no wonder why I feel down
Guess I'm a workaholic baby I'm not into playin'
But I ball as if I'm playin' and givin' up's not in my plans
The top is where I stand and the top floor is where I'm stayin'
Naw I'm not invitin' you to visit I'm just sayin'
Sorry I don't recognize you talkin' unless you payin'
>>>>>
Guess I'm overaggressive, shootin' like a director
And you don't even have to act, you can get shot just bein' the extra
Your girl give me retarded brain, shit, I feel special
>>>>>
Party every night, I feel festive
Trappin' like the laws ain't got the balls to come arrest us
School of hardknocks and gettin' pussy's an elective
Gettin' rich was sorta easy, stayin' rich is more impressive
>>>>>
Damn I need a massage, my life so very stressful
My masseuse keep talkin' behind my back that bitch better be careful
I tried fuckin' with rap niggas, call myself bein' helpful
But you think we here for friends? You got it twisted like a pretzel
Fuck you and yo career, hope you hear me loud and clear
The trap is a magician wand I make you dissappear
Yeah I heard yo bars, 3 Musketeers
Milkyway Snicker that shit give you diarrhea
But you so full of shit, none of the shit you say is real
Where's the car you say you drive that don't come out til late next year?
It's okay, I wait til you come up with new ideas
You spent that in the mall? Blow that kinda dough in Seers
All I talk is money now that's music to my ears
I'm so motherfuckin' fly that birds and planes are my peers
Boy them skinny jeans make you niggas look queer
My pants never that tight, even when my pockets filled
My bitches pop they pussy, pop they gum and pop pills
And I fuck 'em for free, pussy's never on my bill

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You will never see a rat when you’re looking at Trip
I unbutton my pants and zip my lips
That means I piss ‘em "off" cuz I don’t say shit
I’m prepared to face the outcome for shit I’ve did
I know the rules and guide lines for the life I live
I’m aware of the consequence, I know what’s at risk
I took that chance, Mr. Stepped & Slipped
Never lived with regret so I ain’t dying with guilt
>>>>>
"I teach my son to do better"
Show him my achievements along with all my errors
No, I am not perfect and I won’t live forever
So I’m trying to write my boy instead of my berretta
On my "heckler" or whatever
Daddy used to sell dope now daddy selling records
He never sold crack and didn’t crack "under" pressure
And he’s more of a man than a yard stick could measure
Carry the load to keep my family together
School of hard knocks, I should get an A for effort
And mama kinda bitter, she upset because I left ‘"her"
Now I don’t get to see you, unless I’m on a schedule
According to the judge I’m a menace, a terror, a nuisance, an unfit father and a devil
It’s fucked up, I didn’t get a fair shake
But you don’t have to worry JJ
Cuz help is on the way
>>>>>
If these niggers cool then I’m bellow zero
>>>>>
She wax hers off
P**sy cat with no whiskers
Bout to kill the p**sy
One more victim
I only got one rule, no kissing

//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

I know you think I’m a rapper the title don’t really suit me
I’d love to be called a rapper, but rappers are really groupies
And groupies wanna be rappers, call me a rapper loosely
Wouldn’t wanna be in a similar category
Of anyone with a story for Jerry Springer or Maury
Story’s a made up story, your story don’t add up for me
We in a world where publicity stunting is mandatory
Either you’re Super Dave or a stupid slave
Or acting a stupid slave cause ya trying to be super paid
Listened to all your tunes, what is this auto-tune?
If this was the NBA then you all woulda got a broom
Woulda swept ya right out the series for copying other plays
It worked for the other team, so you trying to throw up a tre
I would empty the bench and replace all you clowns any day
>>>>>
I’m glad that everybody learned how to surf
But I’m shark under that water that’s emerging to murk
Fresh, like I’m allergic to dirt
So when I kill em all I’ll try not to get blood on my shirt
Every verse is a keeper, ain’t a price for a feature
I just do em to do em, my pockets don’t really need ya
If dissing is your procedure, promise you I’ll delete ya
Trying to stay in my lane but you mention me and it’s Ether

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Lot to read huh.. I'll conclude with the opening line from Fabulous' 'Swag Champ'

Now I don't jerk off in public, but I been outdoing myself!

iMPROV story

The below story was created by my flame and I on my ipod 2g in the notes app, using the ingenious method of completing each other's sentences i.e you start a sentence, I continue. Much like improv writing, developing the plot as you go along. The resulting story in all of it's glory, complete with typos and all >>

There was once a cat named jamie who had a pet mouse named susie. They lived in a witch hut in a forest fafar away. Every day jamie and Susie wood wait for the witch to leave so they can go out in the forest and hunt wolves. 1 day the witch's sister kera came to visit. She was very old but wise. She called for Jamie and Susie but she didn't hear them. She journeyed through the forest and was taken aback by wat she saw. For there she saw jamie n Susie with a family of catmice. They were surprised to see her n thought she would tell her sister so Jamie and Susie attacked kera. Being wise, she quickly escaped and summoned her sister who went and cast a spell so that cats and mice would never live together. The end.  

By joekelee

btw, twas' a pain in the bleeding bollocks to extract the note from the notes app via the ipod. Had to ftp the root directory then rename the filename notes.idx to .html.